Often times,
throughout my life,
i have felt
like a lone tree,
naked and helpless
while icy rain
clings to my limbs
cracking and breaking.
As a young child
i learnt first hand
that life was not
a good thing..
Mothers are often
blinded by love
and little girls
do get molested.
At the ripe age of 18
i felt the pain
of divorce,
and losing a child,
to a cold and icy
January grave.
At the age of 50
i came to see
the pain of Greed.
After Spending
eight
long
years
doing without
simply because
I give my time
to carring for
a dying mother
and A grandmother
who I had promiced
could die at home...
with only the promice
of reward at the end.
Doing it alone.
While Those
with the good jobs
the fine houses
new cars..
( and power of attorney)
helped themselves,
to 500,ooo dollars
and property..
doing it in secret.
telling me in the end,
that my reward
was satifaction
in a job well done.
One gave herself a business
anouther gave herself
a 2nd home & oil wells,
while still anouther
gave himself money..
all 3 insisting
i chose my life...
time has taught me
many things
about the cold
reality
of life.
my husband and children
tell me
get over it
get past it
let it go
To forget
let the past
become my strength...
Yet, they can't tell me
How it is done...
Little do they know
how hard i try
how often i pray...
Today i chose
to bare my soul..
But not for pity..
i'm seeking prayers.